ok ok so i haven't been writing...
well i guess things have been busy and i didn't know that readers were awaiting...lol
first and foremost its quite difficutl to think that i am NOT upnorth right now.
i really miss being up there, and i miss my family..i want and really need to just get away and take a break.
the one nice thing is to know that i dont' have to work this weekend...
work has been really busy and there have been some dramas popping up...and i'm really hoping it will all calm down soon. there are a few after hours events coming up that i am looking foward to to that should be fun.
training...what training? its been horrible ...and depressing at how much i have NOT been doing.
for about a month now my spirit and motivation has been getting lower and lower...any sparks are far and few between. just keep telling myself that i need to get into it ...and time is just running out.
have had a few "dates" with some friends. its always a nice break in the action. my freinds are awesome and i love them.
the one thing that has been the hardest is not talking as much. usually i talk to my family as much especially my sister. she is my best freind. like many females i just like to share...and more often than not i just feel i am always the one that is listening... just to share the events of my day. i know that to other people the little things are not as important.. and i know that in time these things aren't important to me either. but i guess its just nice to share...and feel that somone cares because its important to me.
more or less (sorry krysta) i am pretty happy...up and downs as usual. fearful and worry pop into my head and i just know that i have to keep moving foward and thinking positive.
as dad says...what will be will be. | 
